Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Broken Inside

So many people think I got it right.
They may think I'm perfect. Well, far from it.
I'm broken inside, and though people may not see it on the outside, you can be sure that I feel it on the inside.

It's the tears that soak my eyes before I fall asleep.
The feeling inside of me, telling me constantly how I am worth nothing. How I will never make it.
It's my own voice I hear saying I will never overcome this life.

Do you feel like that too? If you do, keep reading.
I feel like that. And I still do.
But I have one who comforts me, who heals my inner pain. My wounds.

I just want you to know that there is someone who cares for you, someone who has gone through all the pains you have. Know that you're not alone!
There are others who feel like you do - I do.
And there is our savior, Jesus, who loves you, and wants to embrace you.

He won't make the clouds go away, he won't stop the rain. But I guarantee you he will keep you from harm. I promise you that he will protect you, heal you, touch your heart in such a way that all you can do is burst into tears.
And when you cry those tears, He will keep them. He will remember your tears, and turn them into joy.

So please, if you despair, like I do, keep close to Jesus. Reach out for Him, for He is only waiting for you. He longs for your heart, He just longs for you to ask him for help. Reach out. Don't wait, don't spend another restless night.
Do it today, now.

Saturday, October 20, 2012

God Is Not Dead

We live in a time where so many people wonder and ask themselves, "Where is God?". Has God forgotten about us? Is He no longer alive?

The answer is NO, God is surely alive! He is living on the inside of you and me, of us Christians. Jesus said, we are to be light in the world.
This was a revelation to me. We are to BE light in the world, not just point to the light. He told us, "You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot" - Matt 5:13

The fact of the matter is, we are to shine His light.
And for such a long time I've been only pointing to the light, but not actually shining His light. Let's not do that. Telling people about Christ is good, but we need to be lights as well; we need to practice what we preach.
Jesus himself said we will be doing greater works than He did on this world. And all that will happen in the power of the Holy Spirit and by His grace alone.

God Is Not Dead, He is alive in you and me. He wants to shine through us.

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Through the Storm

Most of you probably heard about it, but almost two months ago, my fiance and I broke up.
It's hard, and it's even more hard putting this down in the blog.

My Dad in Heaven has lifted me up, has encouraged in his Word.
John 14:27-28 "I am leaving you with a gift--peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give isn't like the peace the world gives."

Since then I've often wondered "what now"? I don't doubt in Jesus, but I've doubted a thousand times in myself. Sometimes I've even thought that I was totally on the wrong track. But I know my God. I know the Lord is and will always be there for me, even when I mess up.

Psalms 55:22 "Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall."
His words are true. Through his Word and his Spirit he's lifted me up and helped go through this hard season.

We've talked about it this months before we did it - I just never thought it'd be a reality. Whatever we thought, I know it's the right thing we did. It was hard, but it's right. Then you can question whether our whole 20 months of relationship were wrong . . .
And I've been so frustrated thinking about it. Here's what God says:
Isaiah 43:1-3a "But now, this is what the Lord says: Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior."

Go ahead and judge me - I would've if I was you, I'm pretty sure. Anyway, for those of you going through hard times: I feel ya'. I know I'm not exactly the right person to say all this, but God loves you.
If you won't listen to me, listen to his word.
Isaiah 26:3 "You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast because he trust in You."

So what now? I'll continue walking with the Lord, loving Him and trusting in Him.

God bless you all. Forgive me for messing up, as I do so much.

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Salad or Big Fat Juicy Meat?

Let me ask you a question: "Do you want to live to fulfill that whatever you do, you do it for the Lord?". You'd probably answer yes to this.

Then why do you refuse the best and say "What I already have is good enough"? This can be said about anything. I'm not telling you to crave material things, no, that'd be wrong of me. Love your God with all your heart and love your neighbor as you love yourself, is what Jesus tells us.
But if you have given your heart to Jesus and truly love him and your neighbors, then why not go for the best? You agree that whatever you do, you do it for God. Then why can't we serve him with excellency?

Again, don't get me wrong! I'm not telling you to be ungrateful of what you already have. No, don't do that. Be thankful to Him. But it isn't wrong to ask God for things. As long as your focus is on God (and I believe it is), then ask him of what you feel in your heart you want. And don't worry, if he doesn't want you to have whatever it is, He'll say no :)

We all know the story of Cain and Abel.
Abel brought the firstborn of his flock to the Lord and that was his offering. Cain brought what - a bowl of salad?
Let's face it. Both brothers had the same privileges and rights. They had the same things to take from, yet Cain's careless attitude made him bring a careless offering.

Let's not serve God with a simple bowl of salad, but let's bring him the best we can, with the best we've got.
Because remember: "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with EVERY spiritual blessing in the heavenly places," - Eph. 1:3
He already gave us the best of the best. Sometimes we need to be patient - other times he wants us to ask Him for it and tell him in details what we want. We are, after all, His kids and He's our Dad :)

Monday, April 30, 2012

The Jesus you never knew

Forget everything you think you know about God...

You're not a Christian - God still loves you.
You don't believe in Him - God still loves you.
You're a homosexual - God still loves you.
You're a thief and a liar - God still loves you.
You hate Jesus - God still loves you.
You don't care about Him - God still loves you.
You're a satanist - God still loves you.
You're into witchcraft - God still loves you.
You're a murderer - God still loves you.
You're self-centered - God still loves you.
You've done bad things - God still loves you.
You've abused people - God still loves you.
You've tried to commit suicide - God still loves you.
You're an addict - God still loves you.
You're a pedophile - God still loves you.
You're an alcoholic - God still loves you.
You have a handicap or sickness - God still loves you.
Your parents hate you - God still loves you.
Your children hate you - God still loves you.
You hate yourself - God still loves you.
You don't feel you're anything of worth... God loves you, and you mean the world to him!

No matter where you come from, no matter where you are, no matter what you've done, no matter what you're doing, no matter what people have done to you -- God will ALWAYS love you! And he wants to give you a life of freedom with Him. He wants an intimate, personal relationship with you!
He wants to set you free and see you through!

Because He created you for something more, something bigger than you are in now.

Jesus looks at YOU and sees your value. You're worth so much that God himself came down and gave every single day, every single tear, every single blood drop, and everything he has and everything he is, just for you to live again!

His heart is waiting for you.

Monday, January 16, 2012

Video: Your Heart

I know many of you know people who gave up on God, I know many as well. But I want to show you another scripture that talks about those who got touched by God, but today live their own life without Him.

1 Jn 2:19 - They went out from us, but they did not really belong to us. For if they had belonged to us, they would have remained with us; but their going showed that none of them belonged to us.